Date Update

So it (sort of) went as planned. There were several hitches, but he was good-natured about it. We laughed a lot. We talked relatively easily for a first-time meeting. The awkwardness was minimal, and pretty much gone by hour 2. And he was such a gentleman that he e-mailed me this morning to tell me he had a lovely time. And we've made tentative plans for next weekend.

Wonderful, right?

Except I don't think I'm very attracted to him.

He's a bona fide geek. Make no mistake about it. And that initial spark just wasn't there. You know how they say a girl knows in the 1st 5 minutes whether or not she'll ever sleep with you? So true. And I didn't once feel that.

If what I want is care and adoration, can I put the sex aside and be happy with just companionship, or will that constitute leading him on?

And I don't know what words to use to reply to his e-mail. I want to stop overthinking everything, but I don't know if I put aside my analytical neuroses, that any eventual outcome will convince me that I held them for a reason.

Fuck, why is life so fucking complicated?